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I have been reading a book called "Female Fear, the Social Cost of Rape" by Margaret T. Gordon and Stephanie Riger.  It was published in 1991.  It is a book that I highly recommend.  They have put into words things I have thought for many years.  Although, more crime is prepetrated towards men, they do not restrict their behaviors in the same way as women do.  In my own daily life, I know that I have planned events around my own fears.  I hope you'll take the time to read this book.  I think it should be mandatory reading for the men in our life so they more of an understanding of our fears.

Have you ever had a decision to make, but you just couldn't bear to make the obvious decision?  For the past year I pondered what was I going to do.  I kept working at the solution in my head, doing the same behaviors over and over, but the situation didn't change; it actually got worse.  I hoped others would change, and things could get better.   I was frustrated, sad, depressed, and becoming physically ill.  (It reminds me of the saying, "keeping doing it over and over and expecting a different results!") 

How interesting it becomes when you finally say to yourself, "I'm done!"  You put "I'm done," out into the universe, and the universe gives something back to you!  Within hours of making the decision I was done, another door was opened, and within days, my path was refreshed, and renewed.  My humor has been renewed, my physical responses are gone, and I'm feeling quite energized. 

You know, though, I simply had to go through the pain of making a different decision before I could move on.  I had to learn one more lesson in my life...and at my age, too!  I am so glad that I'm starting out this NEW YEAR on a new note, and will have a better sense of myself and my life.